Lady in green

I apologize for the morning post.
The day was really terrible,
It was sad, boring and literally disgusting.
I felt super bad, and nth went well.
I was talking to Soap on Fb , and i was pouring out some of my woes to her.
After seeing her msgs, i cant help but see God's grace again, and felt a bit better.
But i know my problems dont just go away like that,
so i maintained a normal heart.
at around 535pm, i was about to walk out of the shop, this lady in green came and she looked very interested in my products.
The whole day there wasnt a single sale, and I was feeling very annoyed with this 'sale' which only come now, at the weirdest moment.
But shes very nice to quickly choose items and bought it, and although there are so many things which shes very interested in, she quickly bought something and promised to come by tmr.
And i made a sale :)
It reminded me of God's love and grace.
always when i thought its the end, and i would have to go to sleep feeling unhappy,
something nice will happen which would make me feel better.
And it has proven to be like this today-
after meeting my aunt in central,
I was on the line with Eric and i heard something which made me abit annoyed,
its something small but during that moment, it was terrible.
and after talking to him awhile more, i felt that i really have no friends.
And later i called him again, it did not feel any better.
But later we were ok, and HJ replied me.
After that Shiya called me, (not Rachel)
and although i know that she probably isnt a very nice friend, and she talked about me behind my back,
i guess being so unhappy abt it , esp this moment wont help.
hence i decided to just FORGIVE THEM.
And I know its not easy,
but I can pray about it .
I am quite sure God wants me to do so too.
Its not in my nature to hate them forever and really stop being their friend.
I can avoid when i need to,
and I am happy with this freedom of mine-which is god's grace.
Cos I am not the sort who would be that afraid of what people think of me, plus this circumstance makes it easy for me.
Cos they already think that I am Weird, and mysterious.
whatever~
Of course I am not ok yet.
But I really find it very tiring to hate them and be angry with them.
I will tell God that I have forgiven them, and I will seek his help and guidance in forgiving them.
I have really been trying.
I am sorry that I am weak, and I am probably not the girl you people think i am.
But I have been really trying.
On the other hand, i would like to give myself some affirmations by praising God and telling everyone what he has done for me which i forgot to give thanks to.
1.A tutor who cares about me and willing to teach for free.
2.My baptism week which was filled with lots of blessings and peace.
3.My forever happy Thurs, Fri, Sat, suns.and my not yet happy Mon-Wed.
4.My caring family who expresses their care and concern via shoutings and naggings lol
5.My angels from God aka Soap,HJ and Rachel. Also the rest who cares.:)
6.My relationship with Serene Lee also became better :)
7.My relationship with Mum. :)
8.My relationship with my cousin is better.
9.My spending habits which have improved greatly due to stop taking cab, except sunday :)
10. My relationship with SF, with have also improved due to the conflict we have with them.
11.My maths teacher who says that I am a fast solver and He should give me more challenging questions :)
12.My Maths improving, and On my way to my dream.
13.My discipline to go to class and take train home instead of cab.
14.the fact that i can make sales and improve sales every month although i do nothing at work.All i do is play game and Study my A lvl stuffs.
15.My bad habit of taking cab is gone.
16.My prayers which have changed from seeing a change to seeing His will.

:) So thats all i want to say.God loves me, yes I know.
Am waiting for GREAT miracles. God's promise .:)