Does it ever occur to you that God stopped loving you?
well it happened to me today.
I must admit that i am unhappy.
I bet you all can tell.
The problems which i mentioned,
none of them are solved.
these 2 weeks,Everyday, i struggle,
I go to sleep feeling unhappy,
I wake up feeling unhappy,
and I dont even know why.
Its weird.
No one really knows why.
Sometimes i am ok,
sometimes i feel terrible.
But nothing is solved.
What are blessings?
when you have to struggle everyday?
I am sorry but thats just how i am.
I cant find strength to give thanks now.
Theres just nothing good about my life and nothing to say to God.
I always say for a reason, but what is exactly the reason?
Maybe accept that nothing will ever change.
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I already sent you a message...but this is what I said:
ReplyDelete"Nothing's changed? That cannot be. That can never be. God ALWAYS answers prayers. But He may not answer it always the way you expect. What are you expecting? that He will miraculously solve every of your problem? Even if you problems are solved, there will be new ones. And new ones. And new ones. there will ALWAYS be problems. The thing you have to do now...is to find God's will in it. And accept it. Endure it...because most of the time, God will use those problems to help strengthen you.
Those problems are necessary. You are a very up and down Christian, which is expected because you are relatively new in your spiritual faith, and you don't exactly know how God works in your life yet. But trust that He IS working in your life...you just are blind to it.
So why not change your prayer? instead of asking God to take the pain away...ask Him to open your eyes. To see how He is with you even amidst the problems...what is He doing? What is His purpose and intent there? And then, follow. Submit.
Baptism doesn't change anything. It's just a physical act, a manifestation that you ARE GOD'S CHILD. And you are. You believe that, right? Is God dead? Does God suddenly not love you anymore? If god's love is to be measured by problems, then obviously He cares shit about anyone in this world, because EVERY important character in the bible went through immense sufferings.
Think about Joseph. Think about Paul. Think about Peter. Think about Moses. All of them went through deep sufferings and pain...yet they succeeded, and God blessed them greatly.
God will do the same for you. Trust, and believe, and hear, and see, and obey. I'll pray for you. ((HUGS))"
I know what you're going through....it's expected out of every believer...but God is not a genie, and we are undergoing a lifetime progress of renewals and training. Don't despair, my friend!