The seeds which grows

Blessed day to all.
:)
My seeds which I have planted are starting to grow.
Of course this time, I will not equate my worldly deemed success to grown seeds.
I know very well God may break and make me.
My last entry addressed the issue on loneliness,
and i mentioned I'd blog about my alone time with God and so that I'd not be afraid of being alone at times.
I must say that I am not as bad as what you think.
I can be alone, only at certain times of the day, it will torture me and give me bad thoughts.
And seriously, after going through quite a number of 'tortures', I dont see it as a torture anymore.
As long as I know why is this happening, and where I am heading to, it feels ok /it will feel ok.
Anw, I mentioned that I would blog about my Godly time, but God showed his faithfulness and gave me evidences that I will be contented one day.
1.I didnt have any time to be alone. Usually on Tuesdays before class, I will have an hour plus to kill, i didnt mind that at all...But that day I was kinda upset, and I was thinking of what to do before that but i bumped into Jiajun and my colleague, she wanted to go with me to buy my cousin's bday gift and we spent some blessed time together.(shes also a christian btw, and a commited one).
After that during class, I couldnt concentrate, and somehow I kept wanting to go to class, and I decided to leave early. As I have always been a good student my teacher didnt question much and asked me to take care. lol.
I could understand ENTIRELLY wad pastor was saying, and after that when I was about to leave,Rachel arranged for a very nice sister Meifeng to send me home..I felt very happy as I so tired and dreaded taking mrt home. And was also very happy to find out that she follows my blog(welcome to my life!) and she shows her support :) During the trip I had time to interact with herand her family :)
The next day at work, everything was horrible again in the morning,
but God convicts me with this- 'Your bad situation is temporary, it is for the goodness of your future, and if you can accept the bad i give you, you will grow very much spiritually and in me. '
And also 'there are too many 'disgusting things' which I need to rid of, and it takes time and if i can accept all these now and change, my blessings will increase by 10000 times.'and many many other convictions which i received.
Upon realizing AGAIN that my troubles will one day be gone,
and that my troubles are part of a plan,
and hardships only make me grow stronger ,
I experienced a happiness which no one could fathom.
And after passing the terrible 8 hours at work,
I came home with a headache but i felt happy.
After these period, i learnt to treasure my family and everything around me, and accepted everything bad and good .
When I accepted all that, I slowly saw his grace and things begin to fall into place.
:)
Sorry about no pictures, I am really pissed at my iphone for being unable to sync photos with my com which i use to blog at home!
Anw, tangible evidences that God is faithful -
1.I have a study buddy now :)
2.my r/s with my family became better
3.Saw how precious my job is to me now.
4.Saw how many people love me although I am so imperfect.
5.Saw how my tortures lead to my convictions and peace
6. etc etc

I will really show pictures soon! Its boring.
But hope my blog did bring some of you some convictions or msgs LOL.
:)
TGIF! is coming soon.. :)