consumed by lack of purpose

The week was great.
Monday-went out with chew and chris
Tuesday-celebration with chew, chris,gary and jiajun
Wednesday-Nth
Thursday-celebration with candice, cw,eric, changchun
Friday-celebration with Hj and later got church
Saturday-went out with Eric
Sunday-celebration with Peihoon
and 2 more celebrations coming up.

The week has been good.
But yesterday after missing church and going out with Ph, it totally ruined my mood.
she bought me a present and intended to celebrate with me, I am thankful.
But she was so moody because of her friend,
And she kept saying she dont know where to go, cos shes moody and so on.
I mean com'on just get a grip?
You're out with someone to celebrate her bday and if you are so moody than what for meet.
And Doesnt she realize that by being like this,
people will be afraid to go out with you again?
but anw, i tried very hard to be tactful and listened to her problems.
But the annoying part was when i tried to tell her how to solve her problems,
she kept rebutting me with stuffs that actually means "I know what to do, but i am partially listening to my brain and my heart, and i am so emo and confused i dont know what to do, and i dont even know if i wanna listen to you, i dont know if i am listening."
Its like as if shes under some medication that causes vertigo and difficulty to think.
And so the cycle continues.
She emo, she tell me stuff, I try to talk to her, she give partial and weird responses and i get annoyed, so i keep quiet and let her talk.
And after that i got pissed and i told her that we have to do something even shes moody, cos we are both out and her being moody wont help anything.
So later we went to watch being human,
and when watching, i feel that this world is getting darker and darker.
And after that while eating dinner, i cant help but feel that the friends around me,
they are either like her, or mia sometimes, and all have a problem or something.
I know life is not perfect,
but why is it that it feels so...
I dont know what to say.
And I guess what type of people attracts what type of friends,
but for me,
probably cos i have been feeling like i have no friends,
I am ok with all type of friends.
And thats why got this type.
Or maybe i have been lacking of purpose,
hence i attract this type.
And seriously, work is boring.
And i have yet to start school.
I dont want to complain about work.
sighs.
But nvm,
while i was bathing today morning AGAIN,
I realize that people who dont need God are often happy and fortunate in some sense,
but the difference is :
Their life is stagnant forever.Good =Oh i always pray to guan yin ma, so i am fortunate/I must have done a lot of good deeds
Bad=Never pray tai sui, aiyo, this yr tiger year lack of blah blah blah duno what crap, and I must do more good deeds etc
This means that they cannot control their situation, and when they happy sad =happy sad . thats all.
As for us christians, happy / sad=same. cos both situations also can see grace. I dont know about you guys but for me, its very apparent.
I can have a terrible day today, but after that, things will get better, or throughout the sadness, i see what is god trying to tell me and so on.
Its not that bad.
It will come to a point where i feel normal whether in bad or good situations.
Only will be worried if things go too well or too bad.
A bit bad here and there-I am used to it.
Its never easy, but like what i said, maybe after accepting that god gives me bad and good because of his reasons,
he might surprise me.
LOL.
So well.
To BAD and Good days!

p.s people who dont know me think i am a psycho who enjoys pain!