I have no other way

My life is not going the way i want.
And my struggles are so real.
But today,
i decide to 'put an end' to my 10 yr friendship with her/them.
I think God wants me to stay away from them.
Its obvious.
Even maybe Sf.
In the next few mths,
I will learn to deal with this.
And I will pray about this everyday,
till the day i have completely forgotten and let go of them.
I am tired of hating her, getting angry at them when i cannot express anything.
There must be a reason why all these are happening when my baptism is drawing near.
And, put it simply,
I am tired of being their friend.
And i think, being alone seems to be better.
I need prayers from all of you more.
Cos I dont know what to do also.
And God responds to me I know.
But I dont know why am i still unhappy.

:(