Timely moments

Life is really a bitch.I used 144 mb over, and its like $398... sgd extra.Its f-ing irritating.I was so pissed I went to call singtel and lied that i didnt know its only 20mb,i thought its 1Gb,Anw,I overused so much because i look fwd to soap's replies everyday. :)Every morning, I check my mails and I feel happy when i see her replies.Didnt know that brethen healing takes place overseas.LOL.Anw, I've gotten over my 2 friends.For some reason, after talking to my mum,she told me to forgive them, and realize that no one is perfect thats why we get back stabbed all the time.But if they really value me as a friend,they'd stop talking and tell me face to face.But the thing is, I cant handle criticism well.So probably if they did thought of telling me, It would be disastrous.I guess there are also a lot of things that i didnt do properly,and thats why i left room for them to talk, cos they cant tell me anyway.I received all these from God this morning. He tells me to change myself. Actually its true also.I kept thinking on my part, thinking about why they talk abt me, why they so bad etc.But actually, i should have just reflected on what they talked about me.Like probably, actually, about 50% of what they said is true.Thats quite serious.I think God made this happen because he wanted me to change myself.I've came to this point where i realize i can no longer be spoilt and do whatever i please anymore.Not for anyone.But myself and God.Anw i stillhave to deal with this world.I still meet people daily.whether they are my sisters/brothers.same.Its good that i have problems now.I have convictions and i can testify more.Maybe this is what God wants me to do in the future.I will be a professional testifier.You should have seen the changes in my prayer topics.I kept asking God recently to tell me why i am here for.And i probably realized that no matter how terrible i feel,I still have God.And I can turn to him.All these things are really happening at a timely moment.It feels like its a plan.It feels like God just wants to change me.He wants to create a new life for me. It just feels this way.So i guess every torture on mon-wed is actually leading me closer to his plans.Thinking about this makes things feel much better.I am still happy that i have friends , whether or not they are good.I am happy that i have worldly friends like Eric, Candice, Serene, Xf , Caiyun, Chris and Ah chew, Jiajun.I dont know why i just dont see God's grace previously.I will learn to see more from now on.