what would God do? Remove those negative influences.

I was so angry.
And a bit sad.
After my friend made insensitive comments about me, and another friend.
I was angry because I have such friends which i have to tolerate with.
Why is it that i have to tolerate with someone who is so annoying?
So I was thinking.
Maybe its a good thing to stay away from her.
Why is it that i always have to stay away from people?
And the conclusion i get is stay away?
Does it have to do with my threshold?
Or does it have to do with my character or wad.
Cos it seems like i cant get along with anybody or everybody.
Even my mum says that I have fake friends around me.
The past week is good, so now is shit?
Honeymoon period 1 week?
Seriously irritating.
I mean sometimes its your attitude that determines the outcome.
And I have to be the type to 'give in' all the time?
I seriously doubt God's love.
I know its a small thing,
but havent things been bad enough.
Especially a transition from bad to good and to bad again?
I'm probably the most unhappy christian .
I feel so sian that i dont even want to tell Hj about it.
Cant see any happy things.
Class starting today,
very irritated to go to class.
Really dont have energy for anything.
The only good thing is Biz has been good these 2 days,
and My uncle have more trust in me.
Thats all.
Nothing else to be joyful about.
I am sorry i am so negative.
But thats the way it is.
I hate wherever i am now and i hate it that i have no one and nothing.
I hate it that I have to think of the positive all the time when i have nothing.
I hate it that people can be happy when i cannot be cos there is a purpose for my unhappiness.
I hate it that i have no one .
I hate it that my life is so boring and dull.
I hate it that everything just dont go well and i have to accept it.
I dont think i will ever be cured from my illness.