To a special friend that is given by God

God works in his many wonderful ways.
Yesterday i was being honoured to be able to speak to Pastor.
After speaking to our blessed Pastor,
I felt happier and weirdly felt like crying during our conversation.
The feeling was abit like God speaking to me through him.
And of course i feel this way when i am speaking to Huijun and Shiya, and others also.
He told me about Brethen Healing too, which inspired this entry.
I was thinking about my walk with god.
11 yrs old-Soap came into my life, and we were very close . Although there were fights, i do recall her telling me about God and how i'd go to hell if i am not a christian. Its like shes trying to scare me, but somehow, i could accept what she said. And She came over to my house with a written salvation prayer, and after saying it together, we attempted to sing songs but failed.LOL. cos we ended up laughing!
during the end of year when we were 11(pri 5), I was very sad because my school wanted to move me from EM1 to EM2 because i did badly for SCIENCE(can u believe it now i aspire to be a pharmacist) and i would be in seperate classes from Soap and my other friends like Yunnie, Cow, and so on.
And on D-day, Soap called me at night and told me she said prayers for me, and scolded me for being so upset about the stream thing and kept mentioning that she prayed for me, i shouldnt be afraid and so on.
And the next day, I was told that i could remain in 6A, and i could still be together with Sophia. :)
I was very amazed by God's work.But i thought its just coincidental.
In primary 6, Soap and me were still close, but i drifted from her a little because she got closer to Yvonne and Meimui, but i got closer to Yunnie and Sylvia. Even back then, Satan still tries to get me away from God. Yunnie and Sylvia always tell me that its weird that i want to be a christian and so on, but i felt that they were stupid.But because of my family (Buddhism) ,I eventually stopped praying and forgotten about christianity.
Sec 1-2 I went to different churches , but not Soap's church as it was probably too far for me or something. And i find that its different from what she told me, and i stopped going when i was in sec 3.
18-Poly year 2, My good friend then -Adelene, she brought me to church. During that time, my life was very dark. I feel that i have no friends, no one, nth. Worst than now. But I felt some peace after i went to her church. But Ade and me cant communicate, probably cos shes very quiet and she doesnt know how to answer me when i ask her for advice.
18-21 years old, i go to church on and off until i was 20 , in Dec, when my grandmother contracted cancer and I prayed for her, even got my cell group friends to pray, and she passed away eventually.
Because of this, i felt angry with God and i left church.
22-I saw how things become different without God, the inner peace is different.
It became more like i should have this or that, then life would be good.
There was once something happened and i cried to God to bring me back to church-after about 1 yr of not going to church.
In Dec/Jan Soap came back, she kept trying to bring me back to church, and she said she kept getting this feeling that i need her help, and i am not happy. And when she saw me, it sort of confirmed her doubts, and somehow, even though we havent met eachother for like so long, I did not feel weird with her, and i felt like she havent gone missing all this time.
I felt happy with her.
Maybe its Brethen Healing.
And we met every weekend, and almost every weekend she'd try her best to get me to church.
She told me that i am famous in LCM, and everyone know me . But i didnt believe her.
One fine day in April, i decided to go to church with her.
And initially , i felt very sian to go.
But after going in, meeting up with HJ, and SY, and Mei-er so on,
I really like the place.
Honestly.
:)
But satan prevented me from coming back.
and in May when Soap went back to US,
I stopped coming.
Only when HJ met me, i listened to her,
and i wonder how come she can know what i needed from just a few sentences,
and how come i can get along with her like i know her for quite long,
and from there, we both could see God's love for me.
Or is it brethen healing?
Why do i feel happy when i see Soap, HJ, SY, and even all cell group members etc, although sometimes my face like Ku Gua Lian, like what HJ said.
I dont know, but looking back,
I really want to thank SOPHIA LEE,
for caring for me and loving me in God,
not loving me in human's ways.
And partly cos of her love that is given by God,
I saw how much i have.
She never stopped trying, even till the end.
She never gave up, even till the end.
God gave me one very faithful friend,
who loved me in God's ways.
And that is way better than having 1,000 worldly friends.
Its because of her love that i am 'fluorishing' and I am changing.
Thinking back about what i said in the past, its very funny and touching .
Soap: "why dont you want to go to church?"
Jingwen: "I think God doesnt love me. He even let my grandma pass away."
Soap:"God has a reason for everything. He ......."
Jingwen:"But i mean everything bad happen, he just say he has a reason is enough.............."
In the first place, will anything bad happen again?
Will it be something so unbearable or even death?
For now, I only know that everything that happens is leading me closer to Him.
And that is enough.
:)

Also I saw his plans.
His timetable for me.
He planned when I would meet Sophia,
when i would meet Adelene,
when i would meet HJ and SY,
and only completely know him now.
when i am at a more mature age,
where i am at a stage where i desire a change,
desire a difference in my life.
He really works in his wondrous ways.
I am very happy he gave me these wonderful people to see me through this.
Now it seems like nth else matters as long as i have him.
:)

I will see a breakthrough in my 'sunday problems' soon.
To hell with you Satan.